JUST BROKE UP WITH MY BOYFRIEND (go back »)

yes i am very upset.
i know i am bi and well i had a boyfriend for 3 years now.
i am still in love with him, but he was trying to run my life. 
he always wanted me to do things his way, and well i am not that good a at listening to those who demand shit from me, so we always bumped heads.
there was a time when his dad told him never argue or fight with a women, they are always right. and well that worked really well for us, then he stopped.
he began to go back to being the same old person, who demanded things from me.
to him all women were just 'things' that men needed for sex and what not. 
but yet i loved him so much, he made me feel so loved and cared for, he really loved me too.
we broke up last night at 3:21 a.m. that's when he said it and i agreed. he told me word for word

                           "you can never seem to understand that i don't need you, i am not obligated to be with you. i don't know when you can get that through your thick skull... i won't die if we break up....i don't think i would even care much... do you understand that?"

yea my heart broke. 
it shattered into so many tiny pieces that you would need a big ass powerful as fuk microscope to count all of them.
but we we were done, he todl me so many mean things, i never would've thought he would say those thigns to me. 
he told me i am dunce, i am going to become a bum when i grow up, i am fake, my whole life is a lie, i am a lie. 
see this is why i hate men as much as i do. they don't seem to care the tiniest bit, not even for a second.
well the one thing i can honestly say i have learned from this prick is, life goes on, it wont pity anyone, if you fall get up shake it off and go again.
that's exactly what i am doing, i am shaking him off and well i am going to keep on moving. life doesn't wait for anyone. 
and well neither will i..

i just wish it could've ended on better terms.

i still love him, i don't know when i will stop

God help me.

DVS